1 Corinthians 2

Depression my deep pressure within.

Depth unseen compressing me.

Within my spirit i am crippled.

You are the only one that sees my depths.

The compression of my sin.

The brokenness of my heart.

Who knows the mind of man except for the spirit of that man?

And LORD no one knows the depths of You except for your Spirit.

Yet by Your grace You have taken my depth from me.

And Your grace is deeper than my depravity.

Your grace answering me with deep relief within,

Your depth eternally within my spirit.

I am revived!

Amen

There was once a young boy that desired attention. He tried crying first but quickly discovered this brought the wrong kind of attention. 

Not that he didn't like being held, but the holding was only long enough for the current pain he felt to leave for a short while. 

This boy discovered that pain was going to be a constant in various areas of his life with various degrees of intensity. Some physical, some emotional. 

He also realized his physical pain caused emotional pain responses and attention was only a temporary fix. 

How could this boy discover attention from an eternal giver? It begins on his knees. 

The emotional affect of physically bowing to the giver of life.

This boy's whimpers and tears fell as the LORD lifted the boy into His eternal sanctuary. 

No pain will reach and no lack of being held. His tears of pain becoming tears of joy- safe.

LORD,

You a my safety. My constant ear and guide. You speak-I listen, you whisper and I strain to hear.

Continue to mold me LORD. Continue to provide. Patiently I wait.

Dreams

Dear Lord,

I get so confused about my dreams. They are so vivid some times. You have confused me to my core. Please know LORD how deeply I love you. Teach me LORD your patience, something I am horrible at. I have failed at trusting you, but you are faithful in loving me! 

Thank you for strength these past few months. I trust you, you are my God my salvation my Christ and Savior. You alone I call precious. Continue to be King in my life, and provide for me as you faithfully have in all my life. 

Amen.

The splinters in my hands show how desperately I cling to your cross.

Romans 8:23

Romans 8:23

And not only the creation, but we ourselves, who have the firstfruits of the Spirit, groan inwardly as we wait eagerly for adoption as sons, the redemption of our bodies.


Oh LORD I desperately wait!

My body aches.

I hate this daily pain,

This struggle, the strife.

Inwardly I groan with the desire for peace.

Redeem me,

Your Son my salvation.

Your Spirit is my strength,

But if I hope for what I do not see, I wait for it with patience,

Knowing what is to come, the salvation of my soul.

i am going to speak,
i will shout,
most defiantly pout,
i will plead with the need,
all must hear what i find dear,
push aside all fear and come with me to see,
we find our actions in factions leading to our inevitability,
again i plead,
have you seen this need?
our saviour indeed has a plan that will span this space and time,
which will lead towards our proper paradigm.

Older men

Titus 2:2

Older men are to be sober-minded, dignified, self-controlled, sound in faith, in love, and in steadfastness.



Lord I love my grandfather and I pray for him tonight as he makes tough choices. He has been an example to me of what an older man is supposed to be. I praise you for that.